Lost
I knew it was a mistake, right from the beginning.
"Swiss Angel?? Damn if I were to know this person, I'll most likely ... "
Condition met, and the inference turned out to be true as well. Was it a test for me? I seem to have failed it then. Maybe not yet. Maybe.
How about ending the year with a big bang? Confession. Hahaha get it over and done with. Sounds as though I already know the answer and just want to be a sitting duck. "What? You mean you..." *Bang* "I'm sorry, but I dun..." *Bang* "I'm sorry, but I only treat you as a ..." *Bang*Bang*Bang*
Logic says, "Get to know her better, when the opportunity arises." If not, maintain status quo, and let the emotions fade with time.
Fine, how about a change from gloomy weather to a sunny day? She likes you too! Are you ready for a relationship in the first place? Are you sure you are ready, capable enough to inject happiness into someone else's life? Or would you end up bringing misery to your dearest instead? Love does not necessitate possession.
And, the coming term can be a defining one. Carrying forth this internal mess into the new term does not seem to be a wise move. A confession that draws ridicule or rebuke will ensure I embark on the journey to recovery, with much work for me to drown my sorrows in. A confession that results in union will allow my heart and mind to settle down, to concentrate on the battles ahead. But I must also start to learn how to take care of a partner. Meanwhile, putting a KIV tag on the entire issue holds out hope that there may be more opportunities in future for us to interact, and this may increase my chances of success. But I'll have to learn to control my ever-raging impulse to push for an early Judgment Day.
I give myself 1 more hour to decide. Adjourned.
"Swiss Angel?? Damn if I were to know this person, I'll most likely ... "
Condition met, and the inference turned out to be true as well. Was it a test for me? I seem to have failed it then. Maybe not yet. Maybe.
How about ending the year with a big bang? Confession. Hahaha get it over and done with. Sounds as though I already know the answer and just want to be a sitting duck. "What? You mean you..." *Bang* "I'm sorry, but I dun..." *Bang* "I'm sorry, but I only treat you as a ..." *Bang*Bang*Bang*
Logic says, "Get to know her better, when the opportunity arises." If not, maintain status quo, and let the emotions fade with time.
Fine, how about a change from gloomy weather to a sunny day? She likes you too! Are you ready for a relationship in the first place? Are you sure you are ready, capable enough to inject happiness into someone else's life? Or would you end up bringing misery to your dearest instead? Love does not necessitate possession.
And, the coming term can be a defining one. Carrying forth this internal mess into the new term does not seem to be a wise move. A confession that draws ridicule or rebuke will ensure I embark on the journey to recovery, with much work for me to drown my sorrows in. A confession that results in union will allow my heart and mind to settle down, to concentrate on the battles ahead. But I must also start to learn how to take care of a partner. Meanwhile, putting a KIV tag on the entire issue holds out hope that there may be more opportunities in future for us to interact, and this may increase my chances of success. But I'll have to learn to control my ever-raging impulse to push for an early Judgment Day.
I give myself 1 more hour to decide. Adjourned.
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