Reminding myself to re-orientate

Finally after 8 months this obsession has to come an end. I must have been acting like a fool all this while.

My Comms grade brought me back to earth again. Just when I'm barely off the ground. Are my morals, values, judgment and life concepts that sound after all? Have you ever wonder about this? I'm having doubts now and I'd be eager to test myself out somehow during the hols.

But before that I'd have to ace my tests and exams. FA Quiz 3 is on tomorrow, oh my...

I need some time, more inspiration at the right times, to really sort my life out. Every day just flashes by nowadays and I feel that I've lost the big picture of things and instead just fulfilling tasks laid bare on my desk. What's the point of doing all these? What's the motivation?

Ruth at OCS mentioned to me earlier that CCA performance in secondary school is not very relevant in today's resume. Hmm... Food for thought when I'm free.

So in the meantime I'll just have to find a way through.

Smiling outside, frowning inside

I would rather make the people around me happy. What's the point of telling dozens of people, "Hey I'm sad, cheer me up."? Ya maybe I would do that to the significant other, but in the meantime self-healing is the best way out, for the foreseeable future in fact.

But that's just me. I'd appreciate it if my friends show me upfront if they're upset. At least it'd be easier for me to cheer them up. But on the other hand, if I cheer friends up all the time, then I need not wait until they are sad before cheering them up.


So keep smiling. It makes a difference. To you and people around you.

Jose Mourinho, Mar 07, half-time team talk during Chelsea v Port

"I told them either we respond to the situation or we are scared of it. If we are scared of it, it is goodbye."

- Jose Mourinho

Place: That Place by the River

After the disappearance of the Raffles City pianist, I told myself to visit those places close to my heart, before any more of them vanishes. I am glad that I did so recently. Albeit not with the One. And without kk of course. *slap*

But it was still a site to behold. I'm still waiting for the day when I could finally fulfill my wish. How many more times do I have to visit the place and savour the scenery myself?

While that was the only regret, I was happy just to be there.

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A fine lady passed away recently. I never got to see the last of her. Just as the pianist vanished quietly, this lady went off on her whole while I was oblivious to what was happening to her over the past years.

I may not be wealthy or rich. But I have so much that I treasure in this world. So much that it's only when I lose some, that I see how important they are to me.

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Wonder how kk is doing but I heard she's doing fine, making new friends and finally fitting into the community. Of course that includes the hordes of male company that's providing fun and entertainment. Whichever way she deems fit. I hope she likes the parcel that I sent over. Right, whatever; as long as she's happy. Contain my jealousy HUH??

Rubbish talking.