Saving a friendship

The reason behind the entanglement now is that I am afraid of losing kk as a friend - just like the rest of the group, who are now mere acquaintances. Leaving things to fate seems to lead to diverting paths. While I acknowledge the principle of criss-crossing lives, I am unable to accept the bitterness of it.

Jing said I looked more matured, darker but a little sad. 自信心 - 以前不是这样（低）的。

Shu said I looked happy like before.

Imm said I was a funny man...

etc.

Slowly I have managed to mask the pains my heart and soul is feeling. Meantime, I have a friendship to save. But could I? It feels like going "against" natural progression, and usually this leads to nowhere eventually.

I sense that the whole relationship is hitting rock-bottom. Previously I had chosen to stay clear. Whatever the reasons behind this choice, now I realised that doing so promotes alienation and increases misunderstandings. This is not how friendship develops. Deliberately and unilaterally choosing this path suddenly does not seem so righteous anymore. It is not a worthy sacrifice made. I must find ways to normalise relations, otherwise I may regret it later.

Never adopt isolation policy again. All attempts for implementing this policy had resulted in a frentic recovery effort afterwards. The correct way is kiteflying method - releasing and pulling at the right times - not letting go all at once or reclaiming in a hurry. Either way freaks ppl out.

Ok that's in theory. I'll have to perfect the execution if I were to succeed.

Right, I shan't waste time talking to myself anymore. There's something worth fighting for now. Nope not as sacred as love, but as basic as friendship.