Thinking of you

Loving ya...

I'll open a chamber, deep down in my heart, and lock up my love for you, right there. Ha there's no other way, none at all, not any other way that I can think of. I have to move on and focus on the other pressing issues. Why am I emulating the way you are handling this? But I'm prepared to take the risks. After all, what other viable options do I have?

February will be a testing month, twice the difficulty this time round, but we'll see. One step at a time; one night at a time.

Night-time has always been stressful these days. Thinking of you. Ha...

Jing said she hasn't seen me like this before. Where's that air of confidence and poise (if it was even present in the first place)? 哪里，找我的梦？被偷得梦，偷偷的，逃走了，不见了；一无所有了，一辈子晃晃悠悠。。。

And Sumiko Tan's article today hit the nail on my head. It provided a clear view of my current state of affairs. But the question of whether the answers provided truly applies to me remains unanswered.

Encouragement has been coming from unexpected corners of life, but there is only so much that Destiny can do. Eventually, it's up to my heart and soul. I thank the efforts of Fate for trying to help, even though it's the same One who set up this trial for me. Oh well... Fair enough.