Missing you on another sleepless night

Destiny. I'm still not sure whether to thank Destiny - for sending such a wonderful person like kk to cross my path in life. Yes there were times of joy. But in kk's absence, it was pretty tortuous. I missed kk, lots. No single day passes by without thinking of kk. While the initial impulsive aspect of it has somewhat mellowed, now I simply hope that kk's happy.

Instinctively I believe that my existence in kk's presence does nothing more than irking kk. So what if Destiny arranged for kk to cross my life? I should uncross it. Let the pain and agony torture me alone; let the laughter and smiles stay with kk.

Perhaps kk does not think that way. But I doubt I'll ever know. IF only kk talks more to me. I understand it's sch-time and kk will always be busy, so attempting to find out more will most probably just irritate kk. After all, is it really important for me to know how kk thinks, and considering all the disturbance to kk? For me, the choice is clear. There is simply no choice. No communication dude. You are nothing but hindrance. Fool. Go away.

[Up to this point, I realise I'm very tired. But I just had to unload my thoughts. I couldn't tell kk all these, and keeping them all in my head make my head swell big-time. Suffering in silence. That's just stupid me.

Sometimes I wonder if kk would ever stumble onto this place. What would she think when she reads some of my posts? All of my posts? How would she feel? I can't foretell, but whatever it is, I just hope that kk will understand that I meant well,. And ya I...

Nvm forget it.

Deadbeat. Another sleepless night. It's all right. =)